Last night as I lay in bed trying to go to sleep, the thought crossed my mind. Is it worth it all? As we begin to prepare for our furlough in a few months time, this it seems is a constant question.
We sold everything to come here, was it worth it?
We have to spend lots of money on visa’s to stay in country, and jump through beurocracy hoops to get visas. Is it worth it?
Our kids are missing out on “normal” life in the states, and are far from their grandparents who love them, is it worth it?
Flights for a family of 5 to return to the States are not cheap, is it worth it?
Serving those who sometimes take advantage of you and hurt you, is it worth it?
Struggling to learn a language, speaking like a five-year old, and seeking to understand what is being said. Is it worth it?
Being bone weary, stressed, and emotionally spent. Is it worth it?
Going home for a few months only to return and start again, is it worth it?
As I lay in bed and thought on these things, in my weary form of thinking, I wondered is it worth it or not?
Yet, the break of dawn brought about a fresh perspective. Especially as I opened God’s Word.
This morning I began reading about the fall of Solomon, and how his love of foreign women led him astray. Which turned his heart hard, and destroyed his relationship with the Lord. Also bringing upon his life the discipline of the Lord.
It was in the midst of this time that it is believed he wrote the book of Ecclesiastes. A book that begins with talk of how meaningless life is.
As I read the first few chapters the Lord spoke to my heart clearly.
Yes, all of the above are meaningless if done for the wrong reasons. Yet, they hold great worth if they are done unto the Lord, and for His glory.
So, though the thought of packing, planning, preparing for our furlough can be wearisome, it is worth it.
Though finding someone to take care of things in our absence, and thinking upon the hoops of obtaining a visa upon our return make me nauseous, it is worth it.
Allowing our kids to experience life overseas, does lead them to miss out on things, but it also gives them experiences most never have, and it is worth it.
Having others take advantage of you hurts, but that’s okay in the long scheme of things, and it’s worth it.
Things are just that, things. And things can be replaced, so it is worth it.
Seeking to learn a difficult language, though tiresome is worth it.
Making the long trip home, despite the cost, is well worth it.
Living and serving here, in obedience to the Lord. Yea, it’s worth it.
It is all worth it if it is for the Lord.
So when you’re strugeling about your day, wondering if all you do is worth it, feeling it is simply meaningless. I encourage you as the Lord encouraged me. To see things afresh and anew from His perspective.
Make sure whatever it is you’re doing, you are doing for Him and for His glory. Then no matter what it is, it is worth it!
Satan longs to steal our joy, to make us want to quit. Yet, the Lord is right there with us telling us we can go on, and gives us the strength to do so.
Everything has meaning when done unto the Lord!
Embrace what God has called you to,surrendering it into His hands, and watch as He brings about beauty from the ashes!
Blessings from Nepal!