This morning I awoke with this question going through my mind. Was it worth it?
Five years ago our family sold everything to come to Nepal and now five years later we are at it again. This time, selling, tossing, and packing once more to return to the USA.
We will leave this home where our family has actually lived its longest to go back to the unknown.
And I wonder was it worth it?
Was it worth it years ago to sell our house to go to Korea?
Was it worth it to sell our possessions to move to Nepal?
Was the 2 years we spent in Korea worth the upheaval of our family?
Has our 5 years here in Nepal made a difference, was it worth it?
And the only answer I can reply to each question is, “HE is worth it.”
We have listened and sought to obey the Father’s leading ever since we got married 18 years ago. This has led us to Arkansas, Tennessee, S. Korea, and Nepal.
And though it hasn’t always made sense from the viewpoint of the world, I know that He is worth whatever He ask of us.
Do I relish the idea of starting over (again)? No.
Am I fearful of the many unknowns? Yes.
Is my heart breaking over more goodbyes? Yes.
Do I want to leave this place we have come to call home? No, not really.
And yet He is worth it all.
To be honest despite the heartache, despite the chaos, despite the ?’s, I would not trade the time we were given in S. Korea nor in Nepal for anything. It has been worth it, and I’d do it all over again.
Today, we will plunge forward once more into the unknown. Our suitcases are packed down to the Kg and tonight, we will embark on the next adventure the Lord has for us.
And we will do so because He is worthy of our love and obedience no matter what.
What a privilege it is to be His hand and feet. To be used by Him. This is an honor we are so unworthy of.
So though nothing about this is easy, we will “rejoice in the Lord, we will be joyful in God our Savior. For the Sovereign Lord is our strength. He makes our feet like the feet of the deer. He enables us to go on the heights (Hab. 3:18-19).”
Blessings from Nepal!